In a few days I will FINALLY be meeting with my editor for what will hopefully be the last time, as far as this book is concerned, and will also be creating my book’s website.
This process has been long but worthwhile in many ways already. It has been a test of discipline and even offered some self-discovery. With that said, over the past few weeks I have been in and out of a sort of withdrawal. When I was writing, I had purpose. Everyday needed to write. I was so engulfed in the creative process that it was all I thought about ALL DAY. I even dreamed about it from time to time. Then suddenly, I there was no more to write. The book was been off being edited and I struggled to replace that purpose.
Purpose and Progress = Happiness. Without either, at least to the extent I had them before, my last few weeks have consisted of a constant shuffling and reshuffling as I searched for the next big task at hand. It was incredibly painful trying to find something to fill the void. The trickiest part about this process was to remember that I still have plenty of things to work on as far as the book is concerned (i.e. website, trademarks, etc). Still, none of these other things require the focus, time and immersion of the writing process so it is not as easy to see the progress and does not offer the same gratification. The result, a lack of fulfillment and a sort of guilt at times when I felt like I could be more productive (I had gotten used to the constant work).
Today, I’m glad to say that I have found a balance . After all of this reshuffling, I’ve finally got drew a “winning” hand. I can also say, one of the greatest gifts I’ve received out of this process so far is the value of purpose. From my personal experience, when you are compelled by a sense of purpose (particularly one that is chosen not impressed upon you like…taking out the trash) your world changes. You may feel pressure but it is a welcomed, positive pressure. Now that I have known it, I feel that I now understand the great feats of historical achievers such as Muhammad Ali, Steve Jobs and others. Although I obviously experienced it on a much smaller scale, that is the point; I can now imagine the power of the sensation I experienced multiplied several times over. Your mind is preoccupied with the task at hand and reaching the ultimate goal. You are never bored. You are never tired in the traditional way. I could go on trying to articulate it in who knows how many ways…but I’ll just say purpose is a natural drug and leave it at this: It’s powerful. It’s a beautiful thing. It’s a high that I will forever chase…this was probably best articulated by Ferdinand Foch….
~Sean